Well, I haven't posted in a while because I've been busy--busy GAINING BACK ALL THE WEIGHT I LOST! This is now the second time in a year I've managed to lose 13-15 pounds and gain it all back in a very short period of time.
I must admit, the eating has been fun. Ice cream and chocolate are really, really good. A new frozen yogurt store opened up in town and their "Original Tart" flavor has become a new favorite of mine. We went on vacation, back to the water park in Texas (it was great, this time we took my big kids, along with my son-in-law and my son's long-time girlfriend) and not having to worry about a diet while we were there was nice. Then home, and back to recreational eating: Potato chips! Bagels! Butter! All most enjoyable. Relaxing, soothing, almost . . . drugging.
But, now my upper arms are plump and sausage-like and my thighs are again rubbing together. And before I grow out of all my clothes again, I'm going to have to do something.
But what? Weight Watchers? OA? A combination thereof? No eating after 6 pm (unrealistic with our schedule, actually)? Cutting out white flour and sugar? A brain transplant so all the skewed neural pathways that make me a compulsive overeater are no longer an issue?
I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I need to do something. I'm 50, almost 51, and unfortunately these overeating patterns are pretty ingrained by now. I've been this way all my life. It's just now I can't get away with it like I could when I was younger, when I could eat a pint of Haagen-Dazs before bed every night, go for a two-mile jog the next day and weigh 50 pounds less than I do now. Seems incredible. Now I know what people meant when they said, "I just look at fattening food and gain weight". Because the weight gain, once I get off my diet, is astonishingly swift.
I will report back . . . once I figure out what to do.
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